About me: New Old Notes Design Host Recently: Brittany - 2005-11-13 21:38:18 |
HOUSTON On Monday, Andrew and I broke up. I was kinda bummed out about it but got over it. I understand that he needs to do his thing. I understand that he is looking for something but I am not sure what that is. Either way we both decided to just remain friends. Last night I ended up ditching my friend Ross. He just couldn�t take no for answer. It really pisses me off when guys cannot take a hint. I finally asked Ross to just leave me alone. He asked talked to me since. Other than I have just been sitting here reflecting on things. San Diego is a nice place. Yet I do miss Houston. I miss all my friends. My true friends. I have met many people here and true I have made some friends. Mainly from D&D but for a 6 month period, I rarely have anything to show for it. I have pictures of friends that have come and gone. I have pictures of people I have met and don�t even remember. I care for all those people. I even care for those I asked no longer to be friends with me. People here just do not understand the type of person I am. The things I would do for them because all I ask is that they be there when I need to talk to them. I wanted to talk to Andrew last night when I ran into him at The Living Room. I don�t know why I get this one particular feeling. It is almost like he wants me to fight to get him back. I see sadness in his eyes when he sees me. I see respect for who I am. So many confusing emotions. I do not know what to think of all of it. Well I do know one thing, he is happy when he sees me and is always the first to offer a hug and that I am grateful for. Just what to do with him is beyond me. I am not sure where my life is taking me just yet. I do wish to return to Houston and now more than ever I have that choice to do that. I see myself hanging out with Talena and hanging out with Brittany. I see myself setting up Brittany and Drew on their first date and following them and watching and evaluating Brittany on her date. Well I am off for now I am here with a friend. Brittany you can send me hugs later when you and Drew are happily married. ^_^
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